The Progressing Life of Angel

  Happy Valentine's Day to all singles and those struggling with anything. We sensitive people feel more, love harder, and hurt more frequently than the average person. As I age, life gets harder, but despite loneliness and complex situations, I can say 'not all the time am I well.' Prioritize your needs in all aspects of life. If you have children, create space for them to develop fully. Young adults struggle due to what they were denied access to. Don't let your fears and trauma as a parent confuse your future adult children. It's complex and emotional.  I know 1st gen parents are exactly like that and my dad was, over the past 5 years,I have gained so much knowledge and understanding of this causes and effects that shaped "why I am." All these emotions of if someone will find me is totalling my brain at the end of the night. Its like how can I do it, when these experiences were told "no ".     - These are my unsaid feelings. 

                                              The Science of Love Shaming                                               “Love” is a word that has prevailed since the beginning.  It's an emotion, a great feeling of endearment. As in intimate relationships, including dating and marriage, we are more harmonious in understanding the concept of consummate love, or companionate love. Robert Sternberg describes these in the now-proposed Triangular Theory of Love .  Non-platonic relationships happen at different times for anyone. Since these hormones start to drive and take effect around the age of 14 to 16, this is when most feelings and sexual exploration arises.   "You are totally out of his or her league; why are they together?" Love-shaming em...

      When thinking of The Bahamas, we think of an elegant tourist attraction with deep blue oceans and tan sands. Rarely mention the people of this island. Andrea Wood is a woman from The Bahamas and a jack of all trades. Not only in the Bahamas; but here in the US as well.  Born and raised in Nassau, Bahamas, Wood-Wilson moved to the US in 1996 and pursued college. She obtained a bachelor's degree at Fort Valley State in Middle Grades Education and another at Middle Georgia State University. However, she got a master's at the online school Walden University. While in The Bahamas, she had begun her start in modeling through her adolescent and teen years.  That was when she first became introduced to beauty.  A self-described tomboy as a child. In 2010 Andrea joined a body-positive organization called Curvy Alliance  in Georgia . “I had an extremely active role as a brand ambassador; I became involved in photoshoots, fashion shows, and the creative pro...

                 “We measure your smile, and not your waistline” is the slogan for Kittness Dance Fitness Studio. Owner, Kittwani Oscar, says, “ I came up with it because I want women to feel confident when they work out. I encourage them to stop thinking about their body image or size and focus on having fun, enjoying the exercise, and dancing to great music. She started dancing as a member of the praise dance team.     Oscar moved to the US as a teen from The Commonwealth Of Dominica. As time went on, she soon transitioned to the American lifestyle. “ It was a culture shock, but I got used to it as time passed .” Caribbean island country Dominica is a small country in the Lesser Antilles.  The population is under 72,000, and Dominica is relative for its African and French influences. However, just like most Caribbean countries, Dominica has its connection to music and dance.  Oscar brings these elements to Kittn...

  Hello there! It's been almost three months since I posted anything on this blog!  I was at my lowest point since 2017. In my opinion, it has nothing to do with the pandemic.  Atlanta's social life is erratic and odd. I made a big step forward. I happened to have a whole vision board laid out for that year!! My vision board consisted of staying fit, cooking, mindful development, and creating relationships. Making connections and establishing friendships is my most important goal. Last year, I spent 65% of my time creating social connections.  Church-related and Christian-centered young adult groups were prevalent.  Now, this is something that I should have done better in 2021.  By that, I mean leaving the mold of a community that is no longer part of my identity. When it came to my first step of establishing this form of a relationship. I found myself reverting to the mold. It was not for validation, it was to fulfill my satisfaction and make ...

  Its always one after another What is here,  what is there People in my life, too old People in my, life too young People in my life, my age I prioritize relationships too much That love I need  either not supported  Each direction goes opposite  of its direction  Plans happen , opportunities happen Transportation does not happen  I try to take a deep breath

                      I am just sitting in my bedroom,  many times I don't know what I'm doing. I am the type to know what I'm looking for and what I want.  Those are the thoughts going through my brain writing this. I am sure you can relate to it. When you're getting close to finding the right guy, it's never close enough. Maybe it's just overthinking , now it feels like going for a shot. I am reflecting back on my childhood and my interpersonal relationships.  There are four types of relationships: Family relationships, Friendships, Acquaintanceships and Romantic relationships . .  Romantic relationships of any kind are more unrefined compared to the other following relationships.  It's the hardest to find yet the most heart and fulfilling completed one.  Late comedian Rodney Dangerfield once joked, "a lot of people go to a psychiatrist  , cause they never got enough love as a kid . " I think...

  " I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. I can't accept not trying." - Michael Jordan Through dating apps or just simply an ordinary day, there are many different avenues you took to find that romantic partner spontaneously or with intention.  There are circumstances that can make this process chaotic, oblivion as a first time dating or just change in your dating lifestyle amidst the pandemic. As hopeless romantic, we ask ourselves, “Am I holding the right conversation, why am I stuck after a two month talking stage?” These are excellent questions to ask yourself, these are also questions that have made you feel self doubts at the dating game. Doubt does not mean failure. Margielyn Didal , Filipina skateboarder and Olympian said it best, “ Don’t be afraid to fall or fail” You are the player, your feelings are your teammate. That is why accepting the  outcome is leading you towards the ...

  "When was your last relationship, when was your first kiss? " These two questions are the most common dating questions, the thing about these question is they do not go back to the beginning.  Before, we all ask these questions, the answers started with an experience from dating.  We never ask "what  emotions and feelings/impressions and doubts did you went through walking into  dating, dating culture or atmosphere. " This question is the most rarest and not too many of us will think about it. It is important.  Firstly,  this rhetorical question is being open minded to anyone with little to no experience  plus more experience.  You could have an idea  or just be  unsure.   Secondly, its relatable and foreshadows of "Hey, I was at this place, I did not where to begin, I felt lost, I felt confident,etc."  Regardless of age, it took learning, searching and exploration, starting somewhere.  This question enlud...

  Well, there will be spelling and grammar errors, punication errors. This is just a random post from yours truly. I texted a friend last night. For me, it went well. For her??? Well, idk. AHHHHHH.  There should be normalization of the response to "How are you?" I am going in depth about me. So many times, we give one word answers "fine, good." Instead of opening up, I open up. I am becoming more open about being unapologetically expressing my lifes going and inner thoughts. In my opnion most people should too.  I rather just be upfront, being upftont and unapologetic does not mean anything is wrong, it means be freely expressive and realizing its normal, its imperfect.  Just stop sugarcoatting in American culture, it happens alot in the conversations we have with each other. Small talk , no deep conversation beyond that.  Stepping out the boundary is so liberating!!! Now its just a technique that happens naturally. Shoutout to the ones who gets it. 

   We were taught to learn Martin Luther King Jr , Buzz Aldrin and Harry Houdini before being told about Fannie Lou Hamer , Sally Ride  and Dorothy Dietrich? Who are these women,  why is the women's movement and  their achievements so important? Women include Fannie Lou Farmer, a leader of both the Civil Rights Movement and women's right activist, one of several co- founders of National Women's Political Caucus notably known for her DNC 1964 speech.  Sally Ride, the first American woman in space and the third woman ever!!! Dorothy Dietrich, an escapist and a magician, the only woman to attempt and succeed in Jinxed Bullet Catch and successfully escaped from a straightjacket attached to a burning rope. From my early years to teenage years, the terms "gender based violence " and "gender pay gap " never rung a bell. "We all work to get paid", that is at least what my mom says.  I'd never had to worry about any of those issues, in my household ...

  In a post back, I mentioned at 21, I'm ready to date. This is just an update of how its going so far. I just have to tell it unattached. Due to COVID,  I am actually going through apps. So far I tried five. This is in no particular order. NOTE: Its all basically the talking stage, dating is more official. This is just getting to know. Its not dating until, both you and that person have agreed! Blendr- I do not reccomend it, its poorly designed. The layout is messy and unorganized. There was one guy I found on Bumble, I eventually unmatched with him. Then, he popped up again on Blendr!! We had matched as well on there .AKWARD. The guys seemed to move fast, one was just super impatient.   I asked a question about his intersts, he came off sassy.  It is still good to know and learn despite the differences. It does not always have to be similarity.   Tinder- . I matched with 5 out of the 99 potenials. I messaged each of them "hi, how are you" 3 of ...

 I am a supporter of LGBTQ and everything it is is itself. I am just going to be straight up and honest. I come from an extremely Christian household with being a "Preacher's kid" both of my parents had and still still has an utter disgust of lgbt.  Anytime my mom sees a couple who is same sex or a person that doesn't meet his or her expectations of a stereotypical heterosexual female or male. She will go in private, taunt,call names and even say stuff like "you see that fa***t, sissy" I hate when she says "hmm, someone must have taken advantage of him, that is a sin! "  A couple of years ago, I heard my my mom saying homophobic slurs, I told her to just stop it.   We were watching a TV show there is a gay character, in one scene he kisses his boyfriend' My mom starts acting like an idiot saying "eww" What do you want to see? Seriously that is what she acts like. Hey look! ;Majority of older ride or die  Christians in my family are ho...

  "Do you want to be my girlfriend?" Back at my high school, that statement was pretty common among teenage boys looking for a girlfriend.   I was 17 pretty busy with journalism and ballet. I was not really interested.   Most Americans lose their virginity at 17 via  a survey conducted by the Center of  Disease  Control. It is a statistic that I commonly agree with. It was in 10th or 11th grade, I actually started seeing "actual couples" and  teen pregnancy.  Being a curious teen, I leaned to other  resources for information about sex and dating through entertainment . I grew up in a Christian household as a preacher's kid. There were expectations  and dos and don'ts attached to me.  Therefore dating and sex was that taboo conversation.  Regardless,  sex education makes most Americans uncomfortable that is just our culture.  It  applied to my life as well, dating and sex in my household were not talked about...

 My Experience As A Black Person  I am black and female  never went through propverty or racial profiling in public places, police brutality. Side note, I don't have a story of personal  interaction with police, not any type of first hand  experience with them  in general.  Every black experience experience is different. My environmental factors were also different.   Issues such as that, I will not be the right person to address it or answer questions about  it. Willing to try to give an answer best as possible.  To be honest, my experience being black  has more pros  than  cons. More positive than negative.  I was never by myself someone family member, brother, sister, parent were always with me.  In cases I know of, personally, I see a black men and young male black teens get interoggated compated to females.( that was just on TV and in the news or stories told from an adult) The females that I know of to...