The Progressing Life of Angel

  Its always one after another What is here,  what is there People in my life, too old People in my, life too young People in my life, my age I prioritize relationships too much That love I need  either not supported  Each direction goes opposite  of its direction  Plans happen , opportunities happen Transportation does not happen  I try to take a deep breath

                      I am just sitting in my bedroom,  many times I don't know what I'm doing. I am the type to know what I'm looking for and what I want.  Those are the thoughts going through my brain writing this. I am sure you can relate to it. When you're getting close to finding the right guy, it's never close enough. Maybe it's just overthinking , now it feels like going for a shot. I am reflecting back on my childhood and my interpersonal relationships.  There are four types of relationships: Family relationships, Friendships, Acquaintanceships and Romantic relationships . .  Romantic relationships of any kind are more unrefined compared to the other following relationships.  It's the hardest to find yet the most heart and fulfilling completed one.  Late comedian Rodney Dangerfield once joked, "a lot of people go to a psychiatrist  , cause they never got enough love as a kid . " I think...

  " I can accept failure, everyone fails at something. I can't accept not trying." - Michael Jordan Through dating apps or just simply an ordinary day, there are many different avenues you took to find that romantic partner spontaneously or with intention.  There are circumstances that can make this process chaotic, oblivion as a first time dating or just change in your dating lifestyle amidst the pandemic. As hopeless romantic, we ask ourselves, “Am I holding the right conversation, why am I stuck after a two month talking stage?” These are excellent questions to ask yourself, these are also questions that have made you feel self doubts at the dating game. Doubt does not mean failure. Margielyn Didal , Filipina skateboarder and Olympian said it best, “ Don’t be afraid to fall or fail” You are the player, your feelings are your teammate. That is why accepting the  outcome is leading you towards the ...

  "When was your last relationship, when was your first kiss? " These two questions are the most common dating questions, the thing about these question is they do not go back to the beginning.  Before, we all ask these questions, the answers started with an experience from dating.  We never ask "what  emotions and feelings/impressions and doubts did you went through walking into  dating, dating culture or atmosphere. " This question is the most rarest and not too many of us will think about it. It is important.  Firstly,  this rhetorical question is being open minded to anyone with little to no experience  plus more experience.  You could have an idea  or just be  unsure.   Secondly, its relatable and foreshadows of "Hey, I was at this place, I did not where to begin, I felt lost, I felt confident,etc."  Regardless of age, it took learning, searching and exploration, starting somewhere.  This question enlud...

  Well, there will be spelling and grammar errors, punication errors. This is just a random post from yours truly. I texted a friend last night. For me, it went well. For her??? Well, idk. AHHHHHH.  There should be normalization of the response to "How are you?" I am going in depth about me. So many times, we give one word answers "fine, good." Instead of opening up, I open up. I am becoming more open about being unapologetically expressing my lifes going and inner thoughts. In my opnion most people should too.  I rather just be upfront, being upftont and unapologetic does not mean anything is wrong, it means be freely expressive and realizing its normal, its imperfect.  Just stop sugarcoatting in American culture, it happens alot in the conversations we have with each other. Small talk , no deep conversation beyond that.  Stepping out the boundary is so liberating!!! Now its just a technique that happens naturally. Shoutout to the ones who gets it. 

   We were taught to learn Martin Luther King Jr , Buzz Aldrin and Harry Houdini before being told about Fannie Lou Hamer , Sally Ride  and Dorothy Dietrich? Who are these women,  why is the women's movement and  their achievements so important? Women include Fannie Lou Farmer, a leader of both the Civil Rights Movement and women's right activist, one of several co- founders of National Women's Political Caucus notably known for her DNC 1964 speech.  Sally Ride, the first American woman in space and the third woman ever!!! Dorothy Dietrich, an escapist and a magician, the only woman to attempt and succeed in Jinxed Bullet Catch and successfully escaped from a straightjacket attached to a burning rope. From my early years to teenage years, the terms "gender based violence " and "gender pay gap " never rung a bell. "We all work to get paid", that is at least what my mom says.  I'd never had to worry about any of those issues, in my household ...

  In a post back, I mentioned at 21, I'm ready to date. This is just an update of how its going so far. I just have to tell it unattached. Due to COVID,  I am actually going through apps. So far I tried five. This is in no particular order. NOTE: Its all basically the talking stage, dating is more official. This is just getting to know. Its not dating until, both you and that person have agreed! Blendr- I do not reccomend it, its poorly designed. The layout is messy and unorganized. There was one guy I found on Bumble, I eventually unmatched with him. Then, he popped up again on Blendr!! We had matched as well on there .AKWARD. The guys seemed to move fast, one was just super impatient.   I asked a question about his intersts, he came off sassy.  It is still good to know and learn despite the differences. It does not always have to be similarity.   Tinder- . I matched with 5 out of the 99 potenials. I messaged each of them "hi, how are you" 3 of ...